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For
years I struggled with keeping my life in balance….my spiritual and
physical life.. I have always loved God’s creation and when I first
read this passage, I was delighted because the desires of my heart were
my horses. All too often
they were “first” in my life. When
God actually became second I would justify that because “didn’t He
want to give me the desires of my heart?”
As
the years came and went, my struggle continued. The last two years that
I showed my mare, God was very much a part of all I did.
I never began a day with out a time of prayer “first”.
At each show, I took the time to pray before my class; not a
prayer to “let me win”, but a prayer to just let me do my best and
protect my horse; a plea that all that I do will ultimately glorify God.
And then came the time for praise after each class.
I had finally found that balance and as a result, God blessed me
by allowing me, at the age of 48, to win our state’s Reining
Championship. Indeed, God
had given me the “desires of my heart”…but….there was a bigger
lesson for me to learn..
From
my Journal….
I
can’t believe my heart Lord…today, after all that I have learned
from You, still an even greater lesson to be learned.
As
I watched her gallop Misty across the pasture I realized where my
“true” desires were. They
were not found in the arena, not in ribbons and trophies…not even in a
State Championship. No,
none of the “things” that I thought were the desires of my heart
actually were. Lord in all
Your wisdom, You have shown me today what the “real” desire of my
heart has been. That being that my daughter share my love of horses…..
For
years I tried to force LeAnn to ride, but without success.
She would have nothing to do with the horses other that a
grooming here and there and of course, she always helped with the new
foals. But to ride,
nope…not interested. So
when she asked if I would mind if she rode Misty today, well Lord, You
were there, I couldn’t get to the barn fast enough.
And
now to see her enjoying what I enjoy, well, there is no championship
that can replace the joy that I feel at this very moment.
So
now that I read this scripture again, I understand…I guess I just
ignored the first phrase, “Delight yourself in the Lord”…that’s
the condition, and then the result, ”and He will give you the desires
of your heart”.
Father
in Heaven, I thank you for this lesson from life; I thank You for
allowing me to learn it before it was too late.
May I now focus my desires to You Lord…now, may the “desires
of my heart” be all that You have for me…
In
Jesus’ Name….Amen
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